I touch the void in sunlight hours
I stand alone in midday showers.
Yet I do not cry one single tear.
Because I am that man with inner fear.
I stand in midnights haze.
Remembering all my saddest days.
Yet with that warmth of sunlights soft caress.
Returns a certain glow of happiness.
Once again I see my days.
As misguided dormant plays.
For I am me the man that wants to be.
About Me
- jamiemccoy
- I was born in London.I started to experiment with drugs at the tender age of 11. My mother was a registered drug addict, and stepfather was a weekend binge drinker. I went to a secondary modern school when I was not stoned or asleep - always sat at the back of the class as it was thought I had learning difficulties and was disruptive. I left school not being able to read and write. A regular user of amphetamines and cannabis which progressed over the years to heroin. By the time I was 21 I was a full time addict and homeless. I begged and stole to feed the habit and by the time I was thirty six I'd been to prison - even when I was released I struggled to keep any accommodation because of drugs. I was 48 when one Christmas I had an epiphany. No plan just a crazy idea and decided enough was enough. I threw the bag of heroin I had just brought into the Thames and has been clean ever since. I have also learned to read and write and have written and produced my own books of poetry. I have also written a children’s book and am now writing a play even though I've has not actually seen one! The day my life changed was the day the Thames got stoned instead of me.